time stopped a while ago...last thing i remember, i had just turned eighteen...i was happy..then suddenly everything changed..since then i feel like no smile of mine was real...ive been lying to myself for so long, that i just dont know what is real...one thing is for sure tough, the little kid that was always laughing and making others laugh, the little kid that was proud like no other, the kid that had dreams, the kid that would fight to the death to stand for what he believed, that kid died somewhere inside me when the time stopped... that kid died in me, and all i was, died with him...
im dead for 4 years and a half now...all i feel is indiference...i just dont care anymore...
the day in wich death will come, will not be celebrated, but neither will it be renegated..it will be accepted, not with sadness, with a smile instead, thanking heavens for giving me the joy, and the blessing of stop feeling...
p.s.- sorry for the absence my angel...but im not a good company right now. some day perhaps...for now, sorry...this word and a kiss is all i have...
Vim só dizer aos sete mundos que ando deliciada com o Quadripolaridades ...
Aproveitem, que a escrita desta menina é divinal!
Se alguma vez cometeres a insan...
Há 13 anos
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this is the sadest think i read from you.I really try to understand you, but maybe today is not my best day eighter. i don't like to write this, but today as i stand here and read those lines, I hate the way you are. You sound so coward! what happened to your faith? or you had none? I really miss talking to you, I miss to see you clowning. Filipe wake up. u seem to be an inteligent guy, please try to have faith that someday things will work out. don't be a coward. I miss your smile. please come back, at least to the way you were before. Remember childhood days, remember the days you use to dream about your future. remeber to make planes and to daydream. I would love to meet you face to face. If I would see you right this moment I would slap you and try to awake you from that fucking nightmare. Miss u pumpkin:*
*plans i meant not planes:)) hahah..maybe you will laugh...hopefully:*
u are not here anymore.you don't write, you don't say anything anymore.kisses pumpkin
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